Comes In Waves (2020)

When I’m ok
I think it’s a lie
The mess in my head
Is hard to deny

It’s getting harder every time
When it hits it all turns black
It’s getting way out of line
I feel like there’s no turning back

Mind crashing and I disappear
Mind crashing when I drown in fear

It comes in waves
It takes a toll
Just settle down
Don’t let it grow

It’s getting harder every time
When it hits it all turns black
It’s getting way out of line
I feel like there’s no turning back

Mind crashing and I disappear
Mind crashing when I drown in fear

Can you show me where to stand
Can you hold me where I am
You will make me change my plans
Torn to pieces on demand

Once I knew you once I fell
Pierced right through me uncompelled
All of me know you so well
Isolation in my shell

I got lost along the way
Searching for a brighter place
I get lost now every day
But nothing keeps me here
You just keep me stagnant again

I admit you taught me well
I do know you break me still
Wrapped in plastic here’s my hell
Hard to leave you when I’m ill

I got lost along the way
Looking for a brighter place
I get lost now every day
And you just keep me here
You will keep me stagnant again

This is how I feel
And I don’t say a word about it
Doesn’t it seem real
When I should not complain, but grab it tight and hold it

I’d rather not talk about it
Just get me out of here, get me out of here
I probably don’t deserve it
If I could disappear, just get me out of here

Can it hold me down
When I don’t even talk about it
I open up my mouth
But no words come out, not even a whisper

I’d rather not talk about it
Just get me out of here, get me out of here
I know that I don’t deserve it
If I could disappear, get me out of here

It’s a trap, I can feel it coming back
It’s a glide, down the way I always crash
Did you see me or not
Did you see where I came from

Slow down, help me out
Can’t you see I’m losing it all right now
It makes no sense at all
Slow down, look around
I’ve had enough of this and I can’t follow
Or figure out
Just who you are

It’s a trap, I can’t feel any other way
It’s a wrap, I am done with this for good
And if I wanna keep up with you I get in line
If I wanna be something to you just get in line

Slow down, help me out
Can’t you see I’m losing it all right now
It makes no sense at all
Slow down, look around
I’ve had enough of this and I can’t follow
Or figure out
Just who you are
Or where you stand
Who you are
Where you stand

I won’t give up right now cause I’m not defeated yet
I won’t give up just now I’m not defeated yet

Slow down, help me out
Slow down, look around
Help me out
Look around

I’ve been wondering for so long
Where to go, where to start and where to run
I’ve been hiding in the dark
I’ve been looking for a spark
I haven’t found the place for me to settle down

Did I ever wonder at all
Did I really cause the fall
Did I ever wonder how it started

Bye, bye out of sight, out of mind that is how it goes, I’m on my own
Bye, bye it’s all right, I’ll be fine that is how it goes, I’m on my own

I’ve been searching for so long
How to reach for the sky and stay calm
I’ve been trying to decide
Is it worth it to comply
I haven’t found that place for me to settle down

Did I ever wonder at all
Did I really cause the fall
Did I ever wonder how it started

Bye, bye out of sight, out of mind that is how it goes, I’m on my own
Bye, bye it’s all right, I’ll be fine that is how it goes, I’m on my own
Bye, bye out of sight, out of mind
Bye, bye it’s all right, I’ll be fine

Stay here for a while
I try to crack a little smile
It’s all I ask of you
Lead me on to something new
Every time I’m failing, I think about the reasons
To stay here for a while
And learn how to really smile
You can help me through
It’s all I ask of you

All of this I longed for is gone by now
Guess I’m holding on tie it to the ground
Grab it tight I’ll loose it anyhow
Yes I’m rolling out take another round

All these years have passed, did you notice?
I don’t know but I will keep my promise
Passing by so fast, did you enjoy it?
I don’t know but I will try to make it

Searching for a way to make it out
When I’m going back I start to tear it down
Seems just right when I can hear your sound
If I’m holding on I will stand my ground

All these years have passed, did you notice?
I don’t know but I will keep my promise
Passing by so fast, did you enjoy it?
I don’t know but I will try to make it

All these years have passed, did you notice?
I don’t know but I will keep my promise
Passing by so fast, did you enjoy it?
I don’t know but I will try to make it

I will keep my promise
I will keep my promise
I will keep my promise

Nothing on my mind
Feels like killing time
But I’m alright

I cannot deny
The days are passing by
And I feel fine

How does it feel?
How does it feel?
How does it feel?
To be young and so real

Seconds feels like days
Times just flies away
But I don’t mind
Slowly growing
Into someone new

How does it feel?
How does it feel?
How does it feel?
To be young and so real

How does it feel?
How does it feel?
How does it feel?
To be young and so real

How does it feel?
To have this ideal
It’s like standing on heels
It’s spinning wheels

How does it feel?
How does it feel?
How does it feel?

Teach me to settle down
Show me another ground
Help me to turn around
And I will ride it out

Here is all I see
Time is chasing me
All in a different field
And I will ride it out

I’m never going to be the one who will let you down, let you down
I’m always spinning out of course turning all around, all around

Teach me to misbehave
Give me a little break
Gain what I wanna take
And I will ride it out

Only to make me move
Here’s what I have to choose
Nothing I have to prove
I will ride it out

I’m never going to be the one who will let you down, let you down
I’m always spinning out of course turning all around, all around

Take a note out from these greetings, sidetrack, feelings, and somewhere is you
Making trouble with these meanings, always, peeling, layers of truth

I am here to let you in
I am here to shout it loud
If you want to ride it down and down and down it goes
Can we only just pretend
That we couldn’t work it out
When you come around just ride it down and down

Take a step beyond the notion, of everyone, cruising, and all is for good
Point it out and grab the ceiling, sidetrack, feelings, now I see what is you

I am here to let you in
I am here to shout it loud
If you want to ride it down and down and down it goes
Can we only just pretend
That we couldn’t work it out
When you come around just ride it down and down

I don’t know how it all began, or how it stops
I don’t know how I’m getting there, or growing up
But it’s all so unpredictable
And I’m getting way too cynical for this to stop

I don’t know why it’s different, or how it grows
I don’t know why I’m looking out, or if it shows
But it’s all so very typical
Have I always been this cynical, it needs to stop

I hear the call, when I see you there
I know that I don’t have to choose, I can go and follow you
Hold you near, when you care

I don’t know how it all began, where it’s from
I don’t know why it’s arrogant, why I feel numb
But it’s only as reliable
As I can be convincible, or else it stops

I hear the call, when I see you there
I know that I don’t have to choose, I can go and follow you
Hold you near, as you care
I hear the call, and I see you there
I know that I don’t have to choose, I can go and follow you
Hold you near, as you care

Getting on the train
Taking me back home
The moon is out tonight
Shows me where to go
I wanted this for so long
Was searching for some time
Getting off the train
Finally arrived

Tell me if my heart is beating faster
I don’t know, I don’t

I went off the rails
With nowhere left to go
Took it out on you
And everyone I know
But nothing seems to be
Forever cast in stone
Getting off the train
Now I’m coming home

Tell me if my heart is beating faster
I don’t know
Tell me are we here forever after
I don’t know, I don’t